Was it a matter of bad timing?

     I thought she really liked me

     I thought things would be different with her

     She gave me these signals that were clearly flirtatious

     But, was it because she was looking into seminaries and grad schools?

     I still am deeply attracted to her. Her beauty, brains, personality, and testimony are the total package

     Only problem is, I was never a part of her future

      I wonder if, in an alternate reality, we ended up together

      I wonder what we would do for dates

      I wonder how long it would have taken before someone said “I love you” and who would say it first (probably me because I make impulsive decisions and told that to my ex only a month to a month and a half after we started dating.)

      I wonder if she ever thinks about me

      I wonder if the podcast we recorded will ever be published

      I wonder if it was just a matter of a quirk I had or an idiosyncrasy I showed

     Would her parents like me? 

     Of course, they would. I am a very polished individual with great manners. 

    When the time came, would her father give me the okay to marry his daughter?

    Would her sister be the maid of honor?

    Would she have a perfect wedding dress picked out? 

     Would she be able to feel like a princess?

     Would we be truly happy?

     Would things work out like I had hoped they would?

     What would the future hold?

     What will the future hold? 

I guess we will never know

BAD TIMING